This is not really a birthday wish, but more like a ..urmmm, a dedication!
o hai Hai!Somewhat 12 years ago, when I still worked at the internet rental place, he came once. Actually friends loved coming to the place and spent time chatting, renting service and such lar. But I particularly remember, he came once and we spent half the day in front of a computer, talking and laughing.
I also remember, we shared a chair. It was the only good chair in the place, the one my boss sat when he’s around and it had a cushion. There were many other stools around the place, but we shared that chair cause we’re quite buddies that way back in high school.
Btw, he can’t remember that moment despite me convincing him for the life of me that it did happen. It’s not something I dreamt up ok fml.
Fast forward to present, it’s pretty hard to believe that that boy I once shared a seat with will be the guy I’m gonna share a life with. HE JUST PROPOSED OFFICIALLY LASTNIGHT OK THX! How funny is life seriously.
Being a girl then, a woman now and a person all my life lol wtf, I think I always have a pretty good idea of what life holds in store for me. Well, actually I still know what my life is going to be like, but analyzing it all, it’s just ASDFJPHHHSSZZZT *brain explodes* you know what I mean?
Somewhat 2 years ago, I had the right mind to agree to be in a relationship with him and well, for once my decision serves me well hahahaha.
Hai is a * pause for 10mins*, I can’t really find an exact word to define him. But all my life knowing him ( all my highschool life and our dating life), he’s really your average typical man! Lol, I hope that doesn’t come out wrong.
But really though, he’s not the type to engage in supersmart conversation, he’s all for physical looks in women *rolleyes*, he loves fart jokes, he’s okay-generous, just-the-right-amount of loving and he’s your well-rounded family guy, a normal boyfriend.
Yet in all his good-self and common sense, he’s become someone to neutralize all my bullshit and psycho thinking. In being his ordinary kind and generous self, he’s taken me off my high horse and made me take off my cloak of obnoxiousness. I mean, okay let’s face it, I have since long established and accepted the fact that maybe I’m not really a supergreat bighearted person. I can be an obnoxious bitch sometimes, okay, most of the times.
But you see, that’s what I’m talking about. I can tolerate myself better when I’m with him. I can reflect to his daily normal kindness and just be.
I can has happy! Lol.
I always secretly think that he’s my daily doctor, cause he’s cured me and he still does. I don’t see reasons to be angry all the time thinking that shit will hit the fan. I don’t have to sit my frustration out staring at the wall. I no longer have to fight life with cynical thoughts ALL the time. I mean, It’s not that I’m suicidal or what but we all have our Iwant2withdrawfromtheworldjustshutthefuckup moments.
So you see, have I made my point that he’s just the perfect dose of normalcy to me?
And who wants to be special right?? Special is sometimes over-rated and special doesn’t last. Really, special can shove itself up its butt and go out the door in its special style and I couldn’t care less.
So, to commemorate his birthday and *
clearthroats* our official engagement, haha; I’m writing this to celebrate this SPECIAL DAY, get it done with, so we can have the rest of our ordinary life together.
Okay, CHEERS! :D